Saturday, February 24, 2007

Music



Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.
Maya Angelou

Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life.
Berthold Auerbach

Without music, life would be a mistake.
Friedrich Nietzsche

Music is moonlight in the gloomy night of life.
Jean Paul

Friday, February 09, 2007

Erase...


Feburary 9th.......I have erased this day from my calander forever! Im starting a new beginning. I can see the light!

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Finding a Piece of my Past...




Today I was at my mom house and she found a paper I wrote in November of 2003 for my psychology class at SLCC. First of all I loved this class I learned more and remember more in Mr. Christiansons class then any other class I have taken. Now Ten would tease me about this class because when I was taking it I would talk about all the time , So I am apoligizing now Ten that I have brought it up again.

Ok so about this paper, it was on the Positive Psycology Strategies there are like 50 or so of them but I had to pick 7 that I wanted to apply to my life. As I was reading this paper it made me remember where I was in life I had just moved away from home for the first time and was trying to change who I was. I deciced to get new friends because the ones I was hanging out with alot at the time were not the kind of people I wanted to become. So me reading it now 2 or so years later I have applied them somewhat to my life but I really could use them again the ones I chose were

1. Self- Control ~ This has always been a very hard area in my life for me. I have a really hard time motivating myself to do things that are everyday things of life that you have to do but don't nessesarly want to do.

2.Hope ~ I use to have no hope at all for years I lost all of it when I started High School but when I started college and met Jason I found Hope again. I have very little hope of what I have but it is alot better then none but I am learning to embrace the future and not be scared of it, but sometimes its just really hard not to be scared

3.Zest ~ I have gotten some of my Zest back but I still have a really hard time trying new things that I know I would love to do. I also sometimes have a hard time getting excited about the things I love to do and the new things I know I will encounter

4.Bravery ~ This is something I know I will always have to work hard for. Its something I ache for everyday. I am very afriad to stand up for myself sometimes and I am really afraid of people I have to talk to about money. Money scares me to death.

5. Forgiveness ~ This is the one I know I have done the best on. Some people would say its not but they are not inside me so they dont know. I know I still struggle at times and with certain people but I am working on it because I know that when I forgive my life is happier.

6.Prudence ~ This is another thing I am trying to apply more now to my life. You are always a better person when you think before you act and I have always struggled with this. I need to stop making decisions I know I will regret in the long run

7. Spirituality ~ This is where I truely change in the last 2 years or so. I have found my testimony again and my love for heavenly father and the Savior. I am truely greatful and have never feel so close to the lord in my life then I have in the past year. It is something I never want to lose again and something I will always fight to keep.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Will it ever end?


What am I suppose to learn from all this pain and stress.........I'm done learning and ready to start living